It’s interesting. I’ve reached a point where stepping into tension, the unknown, where you feel uncomfortable. However you want to call it. That what makes us grow because it’s how we expand our comfort zones has become harder than ever before.
If you take a look at the lives of some millionaires or incredibly successful people their lives go like a roller coaster. Sometimes they’re way up high and all of the sudden they sink into a hell of trouble. Until they reach a point of stability. Richard Branson’s Losing My Virginity points that out very clearly on its first chapter.
That’s the way I used to step into tension. As the only resource for grow I would always first shrunk into a point where my comfort zone was so very small that I couldn’t take the uncomfortableness anymore.
For example, that’s how I got selected from over 250 people to work with EDS, a transnational that competed directly with IBM and Accenture in the outsourcing business. That trip took me to Argentina, a place I’m in love with. I learned a lot about the world and people and I learned to enjoy things in lie more than I ever did before. I also took a taste of how it is to live in the present, because tomorrow you don’t know what’s gonna come. I basically traveled every single day.
After this, I ran into a crash and went back to Venezuela, to a place in the middle of the mountains where you can never see the horizon. My comfort zone shrunk back again. I was locked up at my place, living from my savings and I didn’t wanted to see anyone. I basically didn’t told most of my friends I was back because I wanted to experience being alone for the first time in my life.
Then I pushed again, and well. Now I’m here, in a place where it has never been easier and at the same time more dangerous to make decisions in your life, and that’s because they always carry on sizable consequences and I love that.
The funny thing right now, is that I feel I can’t inflate myself as I used to. It’s become harder to step out the comfort zone because I’ve been doing it from a place of consciousness, where the drama that’s usually surrounding this activity is beginning to dissipate. The anxiety has multiplied and everything feels heavier, but for some reason I also feel a lot better when I push it and beyond all I’m o.k. with whatever the outcome is.
I’m learning to let go.

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